Is it really better to love and lost than to never have loved at all?

I don't think so, bec what you don't know won't hurt you. There will always be a hole in my heart. The edges my smooth out a bit with time, but it will always be there.

Ma called asking me whether I have paid my zakat fitrah. Said Abah forgot and paid only for Adik. This happened every year since you left. I don't know whether he geniuinely forgot or he was just embarrased to let the Tok Iman know that I am divorced.

Each time it hurt so bad.

So, FUCK YOU for putting me in this position. FUCK YOU for making me feel this way every year. FUCK YOU for making me miss your family so much. FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!!!!!!