This day exactly one year ago

On this day exactly one year ago, I lost a beloved man I called husband. I remember he had tears in his eyes after we got out of court that day. That day, I thought he cried for us. Today, I think he cried for himself.

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He kissed her forehead and said, "It's gonna be alright sayang, it's gonna be alright".

She could not say anything in reply. So she quietly rested her head on his chest and closed her eyes.

"All I need is this, a place to rest my head." She sighed.

"I am sorry dear, my heart is not with you. But you're so cute, and funny, and freaking smart, and huggable, and you make me feel needed.." And she hugged him tightly.

"Are you happy, sayang?" She tried to push away the memory.

"Why are YOU doing this to me? Stop it! I need to let YOU go." She dug her face into his chest and cried. She felt his warm strong arms around her and for that brief moment, she felt better.

She was a biatch that night.