Lump in my throat

I woke up with a huge lump in my throat. And I am feeling like shit.

It reminds me of those time when I was crying myself to sleep. Same lump. Same feeling.

But I did not cry last night. I can't recall when was the last time I cried myself to sleep like that. The whining, non-stop sobbing, shoulder shaking cry that caused hiccups, and a lump in the throat the next morning. I don't think I am capable of that anymore.

Maybe I did. In my sleep. And I just didn't know it.